cool on your island.

[mood]: i'm about to go to work, need i say more!?!
[music]: world on fire- sarah mclachlan

thank god i have a day off tomorrow! last night i closed by myself cos the new girl had a sick baby. i wasn't too irritated. i'm not exactly thrilled either. i know for sure that sunday i will have to do the same since i'm scheduled to. i need a new job. i keep saying that though. i need a new life altogether.

on the health issue, i find out on monday if i'm severly sick or not. its kinda frightening but i'll have to deal with whatever it is. i try to live one day at a time. i am scared that one day all of my sleeping around i did in high school and college will come back to haunt me. well it partly did when i was 20. well the truth of the matter is that when i was 20, i got pregnant and after a few scared months i got an abortion. i didn't do this half-heartedly. i still think about the regretable things i did. i wonder what an almost 6yr old child of mine would look like. every year i think about it. but i was only 20 and the father was off doing his own thing with another chick and i was broke. so i did what i knew how do to at the time. i regret it. no more unprotected sex for me as well as sleeping with boys.

well....later.