mold(s).

i know that earlier before work it seemed that i was having a pity partly. well maybe i was. i just want someone to want me, need me like i was water and they were thirsty. drink me in. to me its not fair to never have had that real feeling. someone loving and wanting me and me loving and wanting them. its always been so mismatched. usually i am the one who wants and loves. its like a drug this euphoric feeling of love and lust and sweat and kisses. it could be as simple as holding hands, watching a sunset or visiting me at work and giving me a quick kiss. in my life right now, that would never ever happen. i miss all the instense passion. does it ever come back and how do you help it come back??