letters.

i've been a crappy correspondant. i don't write, hardly email and even call less. why, why, why? in all honesty i felt really disgusted at myself for how i was when i was ATL last. i'm embarassed and ashamed but primarily due to the fact that it was a short 5 or 6 months after my bicycle accident and that i felt very, very insecure. i got a tooth knocked and had not felt myself to be beautiful. now and then i did have a temp. replacement tooth but tis not the same. i feel ok about myself now. plus i'm just a bit lazy. i have the same day, everyday and its nothing worth writing about. but nevertheless i hear from no one and no one hears from me. I'M SO EXTREMELY TIRED! its the lazy days of summer.

i can't wait to leave in a month and a half!! Washington here i come!!!!! sometimes one needs to just get away to experience another life. to breathe the clean air and just drown in the rolling landscapes.

***an aside to Mj- i haven't really heard much of Kate Bush so any cool mix would be welcomed!!!

a bienot!

summer music groove

this is my music mix for the summer...i think they work pretty well together and there is some new and old stuff to celebrate a good summer with good tunes. also check out Jill Scott- Beautifully Human:Words And Sounds Vol. 2 anyhow i hope you enjoy it. *** i realize summer is almost done so maybe this will carry you until mis October!

The Blowers Daughter-Damien Rice
Put Your Records On- Corinne Bailey Rae
Behind These Hazel Eyes- Kelly Clarkson
Black Horse and the Cherry Tree- KT Tunstall
You're Beautiful- James Blunt
Bad Day- Daniel Powter
Over My Head (Cable Car)- The Fray
Talk- Coldplay
Speed Of Sound- Coldplay
Square One- Coldplay
Crazy For This Girl0- Evan & Jaron
Powerless (Say What You Want)- Nelly Furtado
Kind & Generous- Natalie Merchant
Break Your Heart- Natalie Merchant
Carnival- Natalie Merchant
Jealousy- Natalie Merchant
Quiet (Original Mix)- Zöel
Precious Little- Eleanor McEvoy

this thing you call love.

i've been hearing the song "Taxi Ride" by Tori Amos a lot lately. its a great song and the namesake for my blog. at least its the line from the song. "Scarlet's Walk" is a great album.

i've been working a lot lately and sleeping even more. its so hot here and i've been sleeping outrageous amounts. well a few naps here and there that are between 2-5 hours long. i feel like a pre-school kid that has to take the afternoon nap. in pre-school i used to fall asleep at the moment we had to be awaken. everytime. perhaps i sleep out of boredom or laziness. who knows.

but life keeps rolling on and on. i am truly happy with all of my friends, new and old. i am happy 95% of the time, when i'm awake. it also seems like its baby season. i know so many women who are pregnant. its crazy, especially in this heat. good luck to you gals!

a bienot!

smooth.

[smooth] santana and rob thomas

i've been into latin sounding music lately. if one wants one to listen to, try the Gypsy Kings the song "Bamboleo" (this is my favorite!). i do wish i was born hispanic or of something that wasmore culturally deep. i can't really complain since i'm French. but everything that is hispanic, asian, polynesian or native american is just so exotic and culturally influenced. (i'm exhausted right now)

today at work was ok, though it turned out a bit on the horrendous side. i don't like it when people whine or demand something they can't get. STOP ACTING LIKE YOU'RE 5!!!!! i don't have the patience and my friends should know not to pull that crap with me. she didn't apologoize so i suppose things will be on hold until she does. perhaps she doesn't know what she should be apologizing for or that she should, you definitely should unless you want to be friends. "i can be cruel, i don't know why..." well said Tori Amos.

anyhow, a few more days o' work and then i am finished. for those who are feeling i have forgotten you, don't. letter writing will resume soon!!!

a bientot!

inspired?

the 4th was fun. i went over to my friend Mary's house and we went to the pool, watched a movie D.E.B.S. (which was so sweet and cute...a slight lesbian love story line that i dug) while eating sandwiches that i brought along. then we went down to my other friends Robin's house and hung out and then we left. walked over to my house (about a 30-45min. walk) and hung out and i changed clothes, watched some stupid kids with firecrackers and then got a ride from my cool Cambodian friend Nakry and ate Thai food. then afterwards we all went back to Mary's place and Nakry did makeup on us (i got my eyebrows tweaked and it hurt). took pictures and giggled. very reminiscent of high school/middle school days. then i got dropped off at my house. a fight ensued. i cried myself to sleep. but all is ok now. is it ever really??

last night i finally saw the movie, Treading Water. it was a sweet, realistic lesbian movie. i like to see lesbians in love in movies. it secretly gives me hope. i am in love. i just wish love wasn't so hard.

my 4th wasn't too bad. i had fun nevertheless.